sisa horor semalam.

25 september.
ruang tamu rumah nenek.



film layar lebar semalam tadi bertemakan horor.
hey! kita menonton film yang sama.
hanya saja tak ada kesamaan pada waktu pemutarannya.
juga dengan siapa kita habiskan waktu bersama: wajar sekali mengingat aku tahu bahwa kamu sedang ingin bersama teman-temanmu
dan kamu pun tahu bahwa aku sedang menjadikan aktivitas, waktu, serta teman-temanku sebagai pintu darurat untuk menidurlelapkan si hati galau yang centil itu.
;D

hmm, keseluruhan, terlepas dari ketidaksamaan tadi, tetap masih ada yang aneh pada tema horor semalam.
biar aku coba cek-silang terlebih dahulu.

monster: cek!
makhluk gaib: cek!
superstisi: cek!
sesajian: cek!
perempuan berambut panjang terurai: cek!
simbahan darah: cek!
wajah borok bernanah: cek!
set pengambilan gambar remang-remang: cek!
zombi: eurggh.. cek!
musik latar: cek!
lampu studio mati: cek!
teriakan penonton: cek!
sweater: cek!
kudapan: cek!

aha! ada yang belum lengkap:
aku belum tahu pundak siapa yang kamu jadikan tempat persembunyian saat hantu-hantu blau itu muncul di layar besar;
aku belum tahu sweater siapa yang kamu jadikan tambalan portabel untuk menutupi kostum pesta yang kerap agak sedikit membuat kamu kedinginan akibat pendingin ruangan studio teater--mungkin juga semalam;
aku masih belum tahu tangan siapa yang kamu cubit dan genggam keras saat kamu terkagetkan oleh musik latar yang terdengar mencekam secara tiba-tiba: aku masih berandai-andai bahwa tangan ini adalah jawabannya.

an ode to george ferris.

august 30th.
dad's house.

her name is martha, she is an old friend of mine.
we went to the same elementary and junior high.
she listens to ok computer, while i listen to dirty.
she listens to bang gang, while i prefer sigur ros.

last night, we went to a carnival.
that was her first.
that was my umpteenth.
there were games, so many ones, but since we only had like 10 mins, we decided to take th most giant thing that our eyes catched for th very first time.

so there we were, sitting on top of th world, praying for that ferris wheel not to fall apart all of a sudden.

there were laughs.
there was a scare.
there were shouts.
there were (still) burdens.
there were stuffs that were hidden.

we both had fun.
we both shared smile.
we both hid things.
we both knew that we were hiding things.
things that i missed for not being together with karen.
things that she missed for not being together with her backdoor love.
things that we hoped for coming home, for laying in our embrace.
things that without which, we could only smile flatly.

we were unreasonably happy.
we might be liars.
we were pathetically lying.
we both sucked at lying.

there we were, spending 10 mins rounding some loops more.
there we were, in a cage numbered 06.
there we were, throwing our arms around something we were missing, yet we barely knew how we could miss it.
because if only we knew, we would grasp it tighter than we did.